Last updated on 22/06/2023
The most difficult goodbye that I can easily remember was several years ago. All the way back around June of 2019 before the whole world shut down.
I moved across to Canada. Sure I had been overseas before but this time I was going to live over there for at least two years. It was also the first time that I had moved out of home so that in itself was very daunting.
I had to say goodbye to all of my family, some of whom I probably wouldn’t see for quite a while. But I also had to say goodbye to the woman who would later become my fiancé.
At the time the two of us were not dating but many people had said that we should have been. Even though the two of us were not dating the pure feelings were still there even if I wasn’t ready to admit that to myself. I felt like I was saying goodbye to one part of my life in that moment, I didn’t know exactly how long I was going to be gone for and what would happen in between now and then.
I could feel the tears burning at the backs of my eyes but I didn’t want to let myself cry in front of everyone because I didn’t know if I would be able to stop. Everyone around me had tears welling up in their eyes too and I had to leave before it all became too much and I changed my mind. There were points along my journey that I looked back on that day and was happy that I made the choice to travel but there was a lot of time that I missed out on things back home.
It was safe to say that the journey through the airport and the subsequent plane ride was a difficult time. I was filled with so many different emotions, many of which I didn’t want spilling out into the world for fear of looking weird.
Difficult goodbyes can come in many different forms. For me this is the most potent memory that I can think of and it made me never want to say goodbye to those close to me again. IT was a hard decision to leave all that I knew for my time over in Canada but I believe it was worth it. I garnered a better understanding of myself and the world around me.